that girl.

2008-04-07T05:24:00.000-07:00

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/zelt

take note: there is no cbox. if you would like to comment, just comment on that post. thanks!
and this blog won be alive. relink thanks!

shopping spreeeeee.

2008-04-04T04:17:00.000-07:00

i feel like changing my blog to wretch. is so much easier to upload pictures and videos.
but, the registration stuff are irritating me.
so, forget it.

i had my hair cut today!
i am feeling very happy now because my hair is sooo light. maybe can float off or smthing?
ohohoh. hanisah and i had a great time shopping today! hayyu left us for tuition halfway. ):
we shopped and shopped and shopped non stop around far east.
i spent around $110?
heh, i am officially broke.
my mum's bithday present cost $60,
my hair cut cost $20
my shirt cost $18.90
my shoe cost $9.90
and i had not added in the amount i spent on food.
even though i spent so much today, i am still NOT satisfied.
i want to buy this dress and that blouse and that shirt.
whenever i say, " i like this shirt/dress" or " i feel like buying this eh"
hanisah would reply, " buy larh. nice."
every single thing she will ask me to buy.
she psychoed me to buy the shirt!
but i did not regret it though.
and we decided we shall dress up and hit the town someday! with hayyu of course.
i want to buy 1 dress and this blouse?
oh and that clutch that cost $15.
looks like i have to wait till 2 mths later? unless someone is kind enough to spare me some money because i dont even have the money to eat during recess. /:
hanisah and i are so into working out. gym gym gym!
part of our slimming idea!

i received the MYE schedule too. and i started planning. i feel like jumping down from the school library when i see the amount of time left!
is just freaking 2 weeks away!
i have no mood to study and i suck at all subjects now. /:
looks like it is going to be megging weeks all the way till MYE is over. RAH.

toodles kids!
study hard! mug hard!
p.s, i love you durgga!

2008-03-29T22:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday i blogged a super looong post. but i dunno why it is gone!
nvm. shall blogged again.
we had rcy art fest finals yesterday! and we WON!
HAHAHAHA!
if there is champion shield this year, it would be us okay!
nvm. i shall blog abt the results now.
modern dance category:
2nd runner up -- rgs
1st runner up -- crescent!
first -- ri

cultural dance category:
2nd runner up -- evergreen.
1st runner up -- st marg
first -- bartley

video category:
2nd runner up -- hougang sec
1st runner up -- crescent!!
first -- amk sec

song category
2nd runner up -- northbrooks sec
1st runner up -- rgs
first -- scgs

weeeee! i have more to blog. but ppl want to see video. i upload vide first then blog abt others another day!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2EW9qjFyWM

game over.

2008-03-26T04:07:00.000-07:00

nothing is forever.
including friendship.
is a game over btwn u (all) and me.

drieduptears is alive.

HAHAHA!

2008-03-17T05:38:00.000-07:00

today is a happy day!
actually all of us nearly died of suspense today.
all the way from yesterday night till today afternoon at 3.15!
or rather 3.30?
AND AT LAST WE GOT OUR RESULTS!
we manage to enter 3 out of 4 categories!
we are entering the finals with modern dance, cultural dance and video!
HEH!
to those in singing,
don be sad okay!
to the ncos u all are really the best!
we believe that u all will learn from the mistakes made this time and will strive harder next year yea?
we will win it next year!

we are back to our regular dance training. XD.
i am excited abt it. is time to brush up my dance skills.
hope all of the 3 categories can win at least 1 trophy!
XD

toodles everyone.
i am off to slp peacefully!
BECAUSE THE HOUSE PHONE RANG AT 3AM YESTERDAY AND I HAD NIGHTMARES ABT TT!
i cant even slp soundly!
my eyes can hardly open now.
GDNIGHT!

alphabetED

2008-03-13T05:13:00.000-07:00

sometimes, is time we GROW UP.
like really. no point brooding over smthing.
what for keep everything inside your heart and maybe start backstabbing some other ppl through different ways?
not happy say out larh. using this kind of small methods, just shows how MATURE u are.
maybe u can say i am imature because i am doing the same thing.
BUT I AM WRITING FOR U TO READ AND GROW UP.
truthfully, i am VERY PISSED.
what i said earlier was a FACT.
i dont care others blame me or not.
u may be not happy with what i say. afterall this is my character.
get used to it girl.
please larh, there is better things to do in life than pissed over this kind of small things.
if you cant take what we say. i think ur heart is really "weak"
maybe u need our help to make it stronger.

don like me? is okay. i am not in the same batch as u anymore.
u won get to see my asshole face as often i guess?
in life i cant expect EVERY SINGLE ONE to like me.
is okay if u dont like me, i dont expect everyone to like me.
trust me, if i can calm down and talk to u, it wld be a miracle.
i will blow off anytime NOW.

vulgarities are just like near my mouth?
tagging your blog is also tempting. dont worry. i will write my BIG name there. or rather alphabets? i am sure u will knw who right?

reflect on what u did first before u start blaming others.
i dont care whether u will hate me more a not.
just hate all u want.
i won be seeing u all next year anw.

BYE.

being named an alphabet. maybe a H, maybe a Z or a T? OR EVEN SOME OTHER ALPHABETS.

after u read this post, maybe u can tell me how u feel. i wld like to knw.

2008-03-01T23:40:00.000-08:00

http://s255.photobucket.com/albums/hh150/zeltay/joanne%20maam%20farewell/

joanne ma'am's farewell.
the photos are all inside.

our VI.

2008-02-28T04:06:00.001-08:00

we got back our a maths paper today.
i was very pissed. for obvious reason. i passed anw.
was quite scared as lesson is going to end.
because we need to act as though we have squad conflict.
HEEHEE.
but ma'am is we bluff you de larh. we dont have any and we will finish Talentime! and win okay!
we had rc today and we acted like we have conflict. i dunno if ma'am believed though.
sec 2s wrote her a poem and a took a pledge. ( their lit is so good).
sec 3s gave her a heart shaped card.

as for us, HEEHEE.
we did this video on why do we like joanne ma'am. KEKE.
it was quite funny at some parts.
but at certain parts, ruiting, yejing and i were on the verge of tears.
and she hugged us one by one after that.
which made us feel like crying even more.

to joanne ma'am,
i dunno if you will read this, but still wana blog. thank you for the past 2 years. u helped us through many many times. though u will read this 2morrow, i still wana repeat. HAHA.
you really is more than only a VI. thank you for staying with us when we had conflicts. though many times you and bertha ma'am had to be middle man, you are were still on our sides. knowing us and encouraging us along the way. and also. thank you very much that you had always been my side when i knew that i retained. i marked those days as my dark periods. it was really very dark, when you,bertha ma'am, clique mates and squadmates came. you all gave me encouragment and support me through all along and even until now. really thank you very much ma'am. we really really hope we will see you soon. must come back and see us when u are free okay? even though is next year or what! still must come back. because i will still be in crescent! and! dont feel guilty for breaking the promise! i would be more guilty if you kept your promise. ma'am! and, can u come back and see our audition for talentime like last year? or even go to finals if we can make it? MUST OKAY! WE WILL MISS YOU MA'AM! AND WE LOVE YOU TOO! take care and jia yous! we will always be proud of u!

half - dead.

2008-02-27T04:15:00.000-08:00

i am very tired after dance practise today.
i just danced continously to whine up. is kinda shiok actually. it had been ever since i really danced.
i am pretty excited about this weekend!
going to hit the town with alcina and carissa,and friday going to have an outing until quite late? and sunday i am going to shop with my mum!
ct is officially over. i am no longer in studying mood.
and i am dreading lessons.
we are back to our original seating positions.
i bet janeen will miss me. HAHA.
why are all the songs playing so emo?
makes me feel so down.
but shadn't emo. (:
i am a happy kid.

blast the music, see me hit the dance floor.

那一场爱。

2008-02-25T02:35:00.000-08:00

我从没见过那种山盟海誓的爱情，但我却见过能为了一个自己爱的人而牺牲的爱情。也许对许多人来说这种爱情没有比山盟海誓的爱情来的精彩，但我却深深地被感动了。

我忘了是哪一天，我自己一人乘坐着计程车。那一天心情特别的低落，听着我的随身听所部播放的歌曲，我望出了窗外。我看见了这对已经上了年纪的夫妇。他们想要走捷径，所以就决定穿过人来人往的马路。那名丈夫走在自己妻子的前面，边走着边把手张开。也许有些人觉得，这个阿伯怎么这么自私，不等他妻子。可是在那一刻，我所想到的是，他还怕自己的妻子被车撞所以他决定不等她反而走在她前面。也许他想说只要把手张开，他就能得到司机们的主意，好让他们能放慢速度。又或者，他宁愿他被车撞也不要他妻子受任何的伤。在那一刻，我不知道为什么，我只知道我眼眶顿时红了。对这一幕，我有一种莫名的感动。

也许平时爱情小说我看得太多，难免会幻想着总有一天我会遇见我的白马王子。但是在那一刻，我似乎回到了现实。现实的生活里哪里有童话故事的王子？但是，如果我们能找到一个对象像阿伯一样，也许就足够了吧。

to jiaying!

2008-02-15T04:33:00.000-08:00

我知道你心里有个人

但谁是哪个人?

你总是笑着不承认

有时候真的很想问

想从你的眼神

知道我有没有份

是不是你心里的人

当然你不用明白承认

只要用你的眼神默认

我就可以再往前多进个几分

找个理由来等你从朋友变情人

其实我好几次想要开口对你说

爱情的滋味就好像玛奇朵

甜蜜的烙印在我心口

虽然他曾拉了你的手

只是摸摸你的头激动却一直跟着我

雨刚下过

这一个夏天显得特别闷热

当你微笑看着我

那时候世界突然间静止一分多钟

那一个moment怎么去形容

爱情就化成玛奇朵

微微笑的看你越是认真就越让人心疼

街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨

没什么能做但我比谁都真诚

泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你总有一种很可爱的独特

让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷

怎样做才会完美像个男人

喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你

在那之前想对你说我愿意

你不必问你也不必等

这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你

在那之后你点头说我愿意

想照顾你想守护着你

这一刻只想把你抱紧

你知不知道你也有一种很可爱的天真

大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分

怎样做才会完美像个男人

喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

虽然永远太不可能

少了你的完整

两个对的人

奇迹就能发生

这一刻只想把你抱紧

to jiaying:

hey!so sorry! didn't have time to wish you today due to td day.but nonetheless. happy 16th bday! the another old ah ma in the clique after me! and thanks for everything you all did for me. regardless was my birthday or abt my retaining thing.. it really touched my heart that all of you had always been by my side. i find it amazing. in our clique, we can not talk to each other for many weeks and we still have many things to talk abt. our conversations with one another never dies off. that notebook is precious. is like my life. because.

as we go on,

we remember,

all the times we had together.

and....

we will still be friends forever.

2008-02-11T04:12:00.000-08:00

http://s255.photobucket.com/albums/hh150/zeltay/cny%2008/?albumview=grid

those who want to have the pics we took on cny celebrations or squad outing, is inside.
new year holidays are over. OFFICIALLY OVER.
but i did not catch enough sleep at all! ):
i am so freaky tired and common test is like next week?
RAHHHH.
and fdc next saturday.
busy week.
all the best friends.
mugg hard!
shall blog another day.

happy birthday gretchen!

2008-02-04T03:07:00.001-08:00

3 more days to chinese new year!
i am already in the holiday mood okay!
i have no mood to study nor do homework.
all i wan is slack slack and slack away.
rahhh. so tired. i am so going to sleep my holidays away.
and i have PE 2morrow. /:
did my e maths test today. i was totally freak out at first because i really didn't wana flunk it.
but i guess if i don't make any careless mistake, i should be able to pass.
keep my fingers cross.
mr lee said this to me today, " hazel! got study for your chem test not?!"
RAHHH. don tell me i flunk my chem test. I WILL GO MAD.
i seriously dont want to fail any more test!
so i am going to work hard during the holidays and mugg for my common test!

i will try to score 6a1.
BUT IS SO DIFFICULT.
rahh. TRY TRY TRY.

and is gretchen's 16th birthday today!
happy birthday! sorry that i wished you kinda late.
anw, i cant remember when and how did i got close to you.
remembering that when i was in sec 1 and 2 i totally hate you. :X
because you are always so dao! tsk!
but after being close, i realise that you are okay! and very fun to hang around with!
hahaha! happy birthday once again and and!
may all ur wishes come true and gd luck for your Os!
jia yous! must score well sia!

everyone's turning 16 one by one.
and i still cant believe i am 16. rah. i feel old. and i don have any other hidden meanings. HEHE.
i really wana dress up for smthing.
i shall wait for cny. RAH.
3 more days!!!
happy new year in advance!

keeping silent. thats the best choice.

2008-01-31T03:48:00.001-08:00

this friend of mine, we used to hi and gdbye friends.
please note i use USED TO.
she is very smart. and i am not.
and now we are not even friends.
because we dont even say HI.
what do you think the reason was?
it was very obvious of course.
i am a retainee.

i was so pissed when i hear this.
i sweared like dunno what.
is just another person who look down on us.
i can no longer stand all these ppl.
i would just say. they are such a ______.

oh and i know this person.
she was groaning and moaning she was in s2 because she is with the RETAINEES.
and guess what?
she is now the friend of a retainee.
this kind of person i have nth to say abt them.
so next time, please think b4 u speak.

and please, dont use the word RETAINEES.
we have names.
i am called hazel. she is called hanisah. she is called hazwani.

i said it for one last time.
to ppl who look down on us. i think u are so wrong.
just get a life okay?
and dont bother with us.

i am in 3s2a for like 1 mth?
there is still many ppl i dont like talking to.
because i had never think this was my class.
i dont feel the bond.
hanisah, hazwani and i are like living in the world of our own.
i agreed first few days was weird because we could not fit in anywhere.
maybe until now, we still dont fit in.

please tell me, is just a dream.

2008-01-25T01:01:00.000-08:00

xin shyan had her 3 min presentation today.
she talked abt retaining... and hazzie cried.
it really made me realise that actually i am not the one still avoiding the fact.
because deep in our hearts, all of us wished that it was just a dream.
we may be shouting unfair because the adults jugde us as a retainee.
but what i felt strongly was that we should prove them wrong.
since we retained, so why not we be the one who scored the 6 pointers in Os?
and prove all the adults wrong.
yes, that they may say we got six pointers is because we retained.
but i feel that some stuff, we just have to accept it.

adults dont understand the standard in our school.
thats why i felt unfair.
may be all the retainees can go to any other sch standard not as gd and be a scorer there?
we may not be the retainees there.
adults compare L1R5 by points. but they are not mature enough to think that how different the standard is from that blah school from crescent?

some people despised us because we are retainees.
some people looked down on us because they conclude that retainees are people who cant study.
some people feel that retainees are useless.
some people stereotyped retainees.

so what?
at times i may feel useless like what others say.
but this time i dont feel so.
though we are upset and regret that we did not work last year. but i feel that there is smthing i can do.
maybe that retainee will grow up and be doctor.
maybe that retainee will grow up and be a famous singer.
maybe that retainee will grow up and be a lawyer.

when we grow up and enter the society, people may have second thoughts in whatever we do because we retain.
but i strongly feel that we are more mature and strong than any other person.
because we had stand up and face the fact that we retained and got over the humiliation people gave us.
what else we cannot go through?

to the 5 of u all in my class,
don be sad okay! though i can fully garentee saying that there are noone who despise us. but at least our class do not despise us right? they treat us like how they treat the others. or those whom we dont knw well, they just need time to knw us? i believe that all of us really woke up and learnt our lesson already and we will do our best this year okay? top the class. and aim to get 6 pointers in our Os. dont give up! there are times where we doubt ourselves but dont forget that everyone is good at smthing. we may not be good in studies, but there is some other aspect you are good at. don brood over what people may think of us. prove them wrong instead. and i knw is hard to accept the fact that we retained and all of u hope that is a dream.. but we will have to accept it someday. why not we accept it slowly?
jia yous okay! we will pass common test and top the class!
JIA YOUS!

2008-01-21T04:22:00.000-08:00

i knw is kinda late for me to update abt my 16th birthday.
but i still wana post. bleagh.
oh wells, i can say is one of the few birthdays i really enjoyed.
mornings were quite usual. with everyone wishing me happy birthday and blah.
went out with the 7 losers. they celebrated my birthday at starbucks and we sort of caught up with one another.
i went back home after that.
oh and i was feeling very weird how come i did not see my clique for the whole day.
and true enough, my mum threw a party for me.
and my clique was invited.
and and joanne lee came. lol.
i was shocked.
they sang birthday song for me and we played games!
i received quite a lot of presents.
i received a notebook.
a very meaningful notebook. that i really love.
that notebook is going to accompany me throughtout the whole of next year when they are no longer around.
and it will serve as a motivation for me. knwing they are always at my side.
i received a jig saw puzzle.
another very meaningful present.
and now i truly understand that every piece of puzzle fits in somewhere.
i decided to frame it.
thank you very much.
i received a big big yellow birthday card
with all the well wishes from 7 losers.
and i get to hang the big big birthday card on my wall in my room.
i was also wished by many people!
regardless it was just a card of just a happy birthday!
thank u so much for making the effort for remembering my birthday!
i just saw carissa's blog.
and i feel like replying her here.
to tham!
in 3s1, you all are like one of the few i can really talk to. regardless it was campwhoring session or mugging session in B.K at tiong during EOY, it really meant a lot to me. they are like the memories i get to recall when i misses you all. at times i feel weird, seeing you all at the opposite block. but i am really glad, that u all are still willing to come and visit me. i am not bonded with 3s1, but when i reenter the class that day, and i saw the duty roster was w/o my name. it just felt so weird to me. hahaha, just really hope that ppl actually remembers me as the index number 15 in class 3s1'07.
somehow somewhat, we became very close since i dunno when. alcina, you and I wld crap a lot.
talking abt everything under the son. gossiping abt ppl we don lik in the campus. how we wld eat in class and blah. everything seem to happen too fast. but just wana let you and alcina knw, you all are still my best pal. XD.

mugg hard!

2008-01-08T03:21:00.001-08:00

hey guys! sch had already started yea?
heard from sec 4s that they already having tests. ):
gdluck guys!
i had been trying very hard to pay attention to every single lesson.
but the only lesson i failed was bio when miss lim teaches us.
i really really TRIED.
but i just cant. you knw what i mean.
oh and cheng yee told me that bbt cd is out!
and it cost me thirty bucks! heartpain sia!
but nvm. i will treat it as a belated christmas present from myself.
ever since sch started, i had been so guai!
i revised my work everyday and finished every single hw okay!
i don wan to overdue and hw!
i wana start this year right.

life is quite stress though.
with cca and sec 3. and fd com is nearing.
i am very scared. we really wana win very very badly but......
anw, talentime not done yet.
this year is really very stressful..
actually i cant wait to step down already.
but i wld still be counted in the unit.
maybe will go back and assist them if they want me to.

we were talking abt why did we join red cross when we were in sec 1.
it was so funny. and shah said how much she hated me then.
because i wld not attend every activity until when i was in sec 2? lol.

i was super slpy today.
i dont knw why.
for the first time i opened my eyes and slept okay.
but when i wake up i still knw what the teacher was talking abt.
i was still quite happy.
i din really slp but was just stoning. my eyelids were damn heavy.

and i kept my promise. i did not step into any single sec 4 classrooms!
cheers!
continue to work hard dudes!
mugg and mugg and mugg!

oh and i found a twin that look like prince! ><

a new beginning...

2008-01-02T04:59:00.000-08:00

new blog skin cum new url!
quite sick of my old url actually. sounds so lame. /:
sch had started!
i am already trying to be a guai on the first day and pay attention to every single lesson.
hopefully the sch wld count my o lvl then i will have more free periods which means i can do more revision...
if so, i will have 11 free periods!!
oh and be proud of me!
i revised my english today. lol.
i have to revised at least one subject per day and finish ALL the homework.
cannot overdue any!
yupp!
a new year, a new beginning!
and to all the sec 4s, JIA YOUS FOR OS!